There are some moments that change your game, your view, your life. They start out normally, but well, they never quite end that way, do they? This is one of mine.
It was snowy and I was colder than I’d ever been as we drove home, across the Midwestern flatlands, from ringing in the new year. We’d been among near-strangers, and shared the sort of evening that felt as if it was just the two of us in the room, despite the small house we were in being packed with revelers, beer pong players, and drunk girls.
I peered out the windows at the stars and took his hand. He smiled, squeezed my hand and said, “I love you.”
I said it back. And then I paused.
“Sometimes I have a hard time believing that you really love me. Or that anyone does, for that matter,” I whispered, tears biting at the corner of my eyes.
He reached out, stroked my cheek for the tears he knew instinctively would be there.
“You never, ever have to wonder if it’s true,” he said. And then he put his hand on my thigh, told me he loved me again, and kept driving.
“Okay,” I said. “I guess I won’t worry about it anymore.”
I don’t know if it was the wide-open sky, the pure white snow or the optimism of a new decade before me, but somehow, on that late night drive through the snow, a little crack in my heart was healed.
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Oh how lovely
I hope you have many more magical moments like that Amy, you sure do deserve them x
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That’s lovely. It almost broke me and I think I have turned heartless these days. So thank you!
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Awww, that made my heart melt.
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in one instant its amazing the impact 3 simple words have on your life. there is a chinese proverb that says something along the lines of “when soul mates are born there is an invisible thread that joins you together. as years pass, and you grow and mature, that thread come closer together and closer together; no matter what, you eventually will find eachother and your knot is tied.” maybe it plays true for you….here’s to your new year!
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LOL how come yours is adorable? The first time Sean, “I love you,” to me I wasn’t expecting it — and like you, I was too nervous to believe it — and was holding popcorn so I freaked out and said, “I know, I love popcorn too.”
I’m not odd or anything.
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This was totally, EXACTLY like mine as well – I couldn’t believe my boy could actually love me when he first said it, either – not just because when we were together briefly six years ago I told him I “really liked him” and his response was “thanks, it’s nice to be liked…” (!!!!) but the second time around it was just the most meaningful thing – I never thought anyone would actually LOVE me and it took me a while to believe it, but it was definitely life-changing.
What a crazy and amazing thing to have three little words just shake up your whole world like that
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Awww, so sweet. I love when those little cracks heal up.
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This just made my heart tingle. For a girl who is not the least bit romantic, that’s a big achievement. Thanks, it was a wonderful tingle.
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That’s beautiful!
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Lots to look forward to, it sounds like…
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It’s such a hard thing to take in, sometimes, hey?
I’m glad that you’re letting go a little and are letting the love seep in <3
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Those are my favorite moments…where a completely life changing event happens so seamlessly that you don’t realize just how much it changed you until it’s done.
It got me all choked up
Happy New Year!
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What a touching moment. I definitely think you deserve it.
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That’s soooo romantic. I remember having a conversation with my boyfriend about him thinking I’m beautiful and me being self-conscious because of my weight. It was great to talk about that and for him to know that it wasn’t because I didn’t want to believe him, just that other things had happened to make it hard.
Great story.
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What a great post. I made me tear up and it was so relatable. It was also so nice to meet you this week!
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How lovely. That’s wonderful.
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Um, why must you always make me tear up when I read your blog?
So happy for you. Moments like those should be bottled up and saved.
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The word of the comment board rings true-lovely.
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