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It’s Saturday, so technically, my two weeks of break are done & over, something that breaks my poor little heart something fierce. Still, breaks wouldn’t be so sweet if they were forever, so I am coming to terms with the fact that on Monday morning, I’ll don my teacher apparel & launch into a unit on poetry & genres of it & once again be behind an overhead.

Le sigh.

I spent the later part of this morning outside at a coffee shop, writing & dreaming & processing the experience of the past two weeks. My life really has changed dramatically in just a few short weeks due to a change in job status & it’s only the start of the changes. I’ve had a chance to absorb & start laying the very basic foundation of what I hope my life to come will look like.

If I had to describe my feeling after this time away, it’d be refreshed. Not just because I had more sleep than I can shake a stick at, or because I watched a truly alarming amount of awful television, but because I’ve gotten out of my head. I’ve written volumes in my paper journal, read books, listened to music. I’ve spent time with my parents & talked through all the big questions of life to come. I’ve interacted with girls I admire, girls who make me laugh & girls who are completely sweet, girls who inspire me, girls who make me want to live out loud, & girls who are willing to offer me their experiences as I carve out mine. I’ve had honest conversations & seen possibilities. I’ve been in the presence of friends where I don’t have to put on the happy face & I can talk honestly about life without being cautious or putting on airs. Snail mail from across the country has brought a smile to my face, as I read words I know I need to hear. I’ve gotten out of my tiny city & near the water.

I’ve hit the reset button.

The next few months are going to challenge me. I know this. It’s going to be a whole mess of packing up my classroom & saying real goodbyes & laying a new path for myself. The past two weeks have allowed me to think & feel & cry & just be. I’ve already been overwhelmed with love & statements of support & the sheer number of people who believe in me. Thank you. This space has been an incredible support already, & I can’t overstate how thankful I am to those of you who’ve reached out. Thank you for believing in me.

This break has allowed me to learn to start believing in me, too.

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I can imagine that starting your two week spring break with the notice of your next year’s layoff was a hard thing to do, but you obviously made the very best of it.

Still coming out of it feeling refreshed and open to the new possibilities is everything and more that you could have hoped for.

I am so glad you’re having such a positive outlook on what the future might hold for you.

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I’m glad you’re in such a good place, Amy. Sometimes it annoys me to have people say they’re sure I’ll be fine, because I want it to be okay for me not to be okay too, but if you’ve got people you can talk to about the good and the bad, then you’ll be able to tackle any challenge that comes at you.

I can’t wait to see what you do next. I recently went through a moment of career angst and realized that the door was now open to ANYTHING I WANT TO DO. It was so freeing, and I got so excited to maybe try my hand at something different.

I know you’ll rock it. Glad you had an amazing break!

Meeting you was such an awesome experience for me. Honestly, I love that you cried. Haha – I know that’s so weird! It’s just that, I understood. It was one of those quiet moments that are just *good.* Those are my favorite. I love that you appreciate those moments as much as I do.

I know you’re going to be great. Better than okay. GREAT.

Wow, two weeks are over already? That went by fast. You inspire me!

Good luck Amy! I’ve said this before, but I’ll say it again, you seem like a strong woman and someone that can do whatever she puts her mind to. We haven’t heard about him in a long time on here, but I hope Andrew is being supportive and strong for you too.

Good for you! YOU inspire ME. These next three months will kick the last month’s ass. I just know it.

I’m glad that you’re seeing the possibilities, and that you’re getting to a place where they energize you instead of drain you. You will totally rock this, I know it! =)

This post is gorgeous. I love your words and the way you place them so perfectly in a post. I know I have said it before but I really mean it, the world is going to love you. I have such high hopes for you and cannot wait to see your dreams come true all over this blog.

Best,

Hannah Katy

Is it bad that I rolled over each one of those hoping I was the one that inspired you to live out loud?

My ego needs a check.

But, really, you’re fantastic. You knew I thought that already, but it’s never something one can say enough.

I’m interested to hear how this break will have changed your attitude in the classroom. I’m sure you’ll blog about it.

I’m glad you’ve had such a good break. I know you needed it. Hopefully we can have a relaxing night tonight when I see you.

I’m glad you had a good break. I know the next few weeks and months are going to be tough but I know things are going to work out and we’re here to help